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Had a very dull month 
We’ve had a few lovely days, things are going okay but I’m feeling slightly burnt out. Fairly obvious why, I’ve spent the last few weeks focusing on the two major stressors in my life - Jasper’s sleep (which I honestly believe I’ve conquered, he’s even sleeping at night despite the tooth poking through 
) and Claudia’s … well just Claudia I suppose, she’s fucking mental.
I’ve found myself pulling away from her mentally, being overly critical, irritable & always on guard for the next bit of insanity. It is draining. Anyway that obviously wasn’t working so I’ve adopted what the crazies on the Interweb might describe as ‘tomato staking’ (my - maybe charitable - interpretation of the method is that it gives you a chance to reconnect rather than just be angry). I’ve dropped all our activities that aren’t prepaid & she is stuck with me all the time - I can catch the praisable moments but deal with the other stuff immediately, before it escalates. There’s definite improvement but I’m exhausted by it, by 5 o’clock I’m on the brink 
Hopefully next week I can start giving her a bit more freedom again .
So that’s that, there’s been a few really nasty things happening on an online group (deeply traumatic & dangerous births, babies that didn’t make it) it gives me nightmares.
We need a holiday - instead we will be spending what little £££ we (don’t) have on new brakes for the Smart & a plasterer.
