Hat
I knitted a hat!
Couvercle from knitty - even involved a little bit of crochet - left out the brim though. In Rowan All Seasons Cotton.
What I’m finding hard is that we made plans - it seemed like the sensible thing to do once we got past 14 weeks. We thought about the car & bedrooms & paternity leave. I let myself think about Next Year … Claudia’s birthday, Christmas, holidays, next time at Newgale, next May etc. Now it all feels a bit hollow. I can’t imagine getting the car because there’d be a gap, it would never be right.
I think I was lulled by Jasper, I wasn’t vigilant enough.
Still, I’m practising serenity - children are great, Simon & I are strong, great friends, wonderful family. But there’s the Toby sized gap & not knowing What Next.
love the hat. What Next is still puzzling me.
Comment by jax — 1 August, 2008 @ 9:10 pm
I love the Claudia’s familiar “fuck you” look
Have you found a “how to be more sodding serene” course for Simon yet? The Spiritualists might have the answer …
It was nice to see you more relaxed this time than with Jasper. I’m pretty sure you didn’t jinx yourself.
Wish I could help with What Next. You know there’s always a cup of tea for you here whilst you’re pondering xxx
Comment by Alison — 2 August, 2008 @ 12:22 am
er, brackets don’t help on the What Next front do they? was lovely to see you yesterday btw. Don’t beat yourself up, either, any more or less vigilance on your part probably wouldn’t have made any difference.
lots of love xx.
Comment by Sarah — 2 August, 2008 @ 6:04 am
Great hat, great Claudia expression.
I have no idea what next, but it seems plausible that if you had been more vigilant you’d now be wondering whether you had stressed yourself to the point of miscarriage and whether relaxing more would have helped
We’d love to see you when you’re up to it, at a venue of your choosing.
Comment by Ailbhe — 2 August, 2008 @ 7:36 pm